Strength

This week has been tough. We went camping with some wonderful friends and I think it was just too much for my body. (For those of you that know me, we did NOT stay in tents, but the cabin was not quite a Holiday Inn either. Still, I am SO not a camper!!) I have paid for that trip this week. It's also been more difficult because the girls and I caught a cold. Monday was ok, but Tuesday was crazy hard. I'm so thankful for kind coworkers and a husband that could come home early that day.

Last night we had dinner and I went immediately to lay down on the bed while David started bath. All three kids ended up snuggled next to me while David cleaned the kitchen and they waited for bath to start. It was really sweet. I don't want to forget how they wanted to be close, but they just let me sleep. I love them!

Today, I need prayers for strength. These last few weeks of chemo are turning out to be as hard as they said they would be. I've had to call in reinforcements already. I know that our family and friends are so willing to help, but it is still hard to ask for help. I feel like I've been so much better since AC ended that this week was tough to handle. I don't like being sick. I don't like asking for help. I don't like not being able to do all the things I want and need to do.

God is still good though. He has constantly reminded me of his love for me and the love he has surrounded us with. Our friends and family truly are the best.

Please pray for strength for our family to get through these next few weeks. I could use physical and emotional strength. Everything makes me cry at the moment. (Thank you menopause shot. Ha!) I could also use spiritual strength as well. I know God is in control. I completely agree with what Corrie Ten Boom said: "Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength." That is so true. It's just so hard when you have three precious, young faces looking back at you each day. I want to be here for my kids and for David. Please pray I don't let Satan creep into my mind and try to convince me that every little thing is something terrible happening to my body. I want to trust the Lord. I want to live this verse instead: "Rejoice in hope, be patient in affliction, and be faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12. That is what I want for my life, for my family, and for you.