Living in the Unknown

Well, this week will be very different from any we have ever known.
First, tomorrow I will go to the hospital and take a class on how to deal with chemo. I don't have a desire to go back to school for another degree, but I would gladly do that instead of taking this class! Then, Wednesday morning I will have a port put in my chest. Another thing I do NOT want to do. Finally, Thursday I will start chemotherapy.

This week will start a very long process to get this cancer out of my body. The whole process seems completely overwhelming, but I know God is walking right next to me down this path. We will continue to trust even when it doesn't seem fair or even possible.

We would appreciate your prayers this week as we feel completely stuck in the unknown. I have no idea what to expect at each appointment. I have no idea what chemo will do to my body. I have no idea how I will feel when my hair falls out. I have no idea how my children will handle all this. It's just the weirdest feeling...not knowing.

Thank you for praying us through this so far! We have felt lifted up through every step, and we are truly thankful. I know so many of you have offered to help, and we will probably need that soon. I think we will have a meal plan sent out soon. Thank you for your messages, packages, texts, emails, and simple kind words. They have meant the world to me.

I'll post how this all started soon. I definitely want to make more women aware of what could be going on in their body. At 34 and with NO history of cancer in my family, I was completely blindsided. I don't want that for anyone else.