This week

Well, this week has sort of gone by quickly. That's honestly an answer to prayer. David and I keep saying that time is going so SLOWLY! It feels like it's already been a year since Christmas, but that it's an eternity until next Christmas. Ha!

I had my second dose of AC chemo on Friday and I was asleep by 8:00 that night. Complete exhaustion. I was slightly better on Saturday. We were able to get out and run a few errands and then I was probably in bed by 9:30. I didn't go to first service at church, but I made it to second service. I did take a SERIOUS 3 hour nap on Sunday, but oh well. David took the girls to school Monday morning, but after that, things got back to normal. I went to work Tuesday, and I plan to go tomorrow as well. I still feel sick on and off, but I haven't actually gotten sick. Praise the Lord! Today is my first day off most of my anti-nausea meds, and that's been great. Today was also my first day since all this started to have a day of regular errands with sweet Henry.

We had to go to the ENT to check his ears after an ear infection last week. Then, we swung my Eatzi's because why not?! It was right there and I HAD to have some tiramisu. I can't wait to dive into that later tonight. Then, we went and got this hair cut in Snider Plaza. Conveniently, his little hair cut place is right across the street from Bubba's. So, we had a mommy and Henry date. I didn't realize how much I needed that. He literally talked the whole time, and I could not have been happier. Now, I need to find time this weekend to have a date with each of the girls. I think we all need it.

This week I feel ok physically, but I am struggling emotionally. I feel like so much has changed, and it is just so hard to keep up. My body feels different, my hair is certainly different, my relationships have changed. It is just so HARD! I wish the Lord would take this burden from our family, but I truly wouldn't wish it on anyone else. I know he has a plan, and I know he is walking right beside me. Without him, I have no idea how I would make it through each day. I have hope every single day. Hope of an eternity with Jesus. Hope of a cancer free body this year. Hope for our family to go back to a new normal soon. Hope for health and happiness. I know that God is with me. Please pray for me over the next few weeks as I try to adjust to this new phase of life. I have always been pretty perky. (I actually used that word to describe myself in a college entrance essay.) I can usually find the joy in most any situation. This new part of life is a little trickier than usual. I don't want to lose my joy, and I want to maintain my positive outlook. I will not let Satan have a victory in my life. He would not get a victory in my death (because I would be with Jesus), but I refuse to let him have a victory in my life. I will walk with the Lord no matter how hard it gets. I so covet your prayers though. I can feel them lift my spirits when I am down. Thank you for caring and for loving us so!