2 down, 2 to go

Well, here we are again. Sitting in a room getting chemo. This whole journey so far has been so very weird, but there are all kinds of things to be thankful for.
-The doctor seemed pleased with the way my body handled the first round of chemo.
-All my counts came back perfect. It doesn't even look like (on paper) that I've been through a round of chemo.
-The doctor also said that my tumor measured slightly SMALLER! Hallelujah! I'm sure it's not much of a difference and it could possibly be within the margin of error (David is an analyst and way more skeptical than me), but I am SO thankful that it wasn't bigger or even the same. The good news about that is that hopefully my tumor is reacting to the chemo, and that is the whole point.
As much as I hate doing this and being here, I am so thankful for a good appointment and a good reaction. Hopefully all this chemo will kill more and more of the cancer and then we can get it out soon.

Today, I'm getting my hair cut. Whew, talk about an emotional day. I am SO dreading that, but at the same time, I know it will be one less thing to dread. I showed the kids my wig yesterday. Henry was completely uninterested and kept playing with his toys. Ha! The girls actually really liked it. I could see the relief on their faces and that made me feel so much better. I don't know exactly what they were expecting, but what they saw was way better. Thank goodness. My sweet friend Anita is doing my hair today and David and my sisters will be there. I know it won't be fun, but as long as I can get better for my kids and family then it will be completely worth it.

I have no idea why the Lord has us on this path right now, but I do know that He is faithful. I know that He is walking with me and carrying us through this. I know that he will protect my children's sweet hearts and show them that while the world may look at our outside appearance, the Lord looks at our heart. (1 Samuel 16:7) I know that he will protect my heart from fear and doubt, and I know that I will continue to live a life that is (hopefully) glorifying to Him.
Psalm 91 came to mind as I sit here...
Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." Surely he will save you from the fowlers snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night..."Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me , and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation."

I know that this verse does not mean that my life will be perfect or that the Lord will do whatever I want him to and just take all this sickness from me. I do know that I will trust him either way, and I find so much comfort as I rest under his wings. He is able to do more than I could ever imagine, and for that I will always be thankful.
Thank you for loving us through this difficult time and for praying. I will forever be grateful for each of you as well.

Getting ready for the red devil...

Thank you to my sweet PDO friends. I LOVE my blanket and I am thankful for your prayers and friendship!